week four

how e=mc2 (can't find the superscript button!) has affected me: 

this lovely theory has helped human consciousness to evolve and open to the possibilities that we are not solid, we have huge unexpressed energy potentials, there may be a lot more we don't know. i think all these thought forms and their children have been helpful over time in expanding and improving in many ways our experience of life here on earth. unfortunately, some nasty crap has come out of e=mc2 too. (like nuclear bombs!) and we are human mediators for that aspect of possibility too. receiving and processing the fallout on so many levels.

comparing the four forces:

the four forces are like four sunday morning superfriends.

we have the wondertwins!: strong and weak nuclear forces which both hold the nucleus together, but one's on steroids, and the other lets a few things go from time to time.

aquaman!: electromagnetism at it's finest. he lives in a world of conductivity and with his super power can call all it's people/ocean animals together to chase negativity with positivity.

wonderwoman!: this is gravity, invisible in her special plane, and indefinable. still she is powerful and her magic lasso can pull you right down to earth. (or anywhere else she wants you to go!)

function of gravity:

"Love is metaphysical gravity." - R. Buckminster Fuller

gravity is an ocean for us to swim in. keeps the crows connected to the earth as they leap from the uppermost branches of the oak into the pure blue sky. helps give us form. provides a sense of "here." a field which is unique and unifying. literally holds us together. challenges the imagination as a boundary or barrier to be overcome. if gravity were a person, it would be a wise and patient grandmother. holding us consistently in her arms. letting us get away with it now and then. connecting us to all that is and has been and will be until we're wise enough to get that connection, the oneness, on our own.

week three

evidence for synchronicity:

life is full of  little synchronicities. i usually interpret them in one of two ways: i'm either in the right flow and all is happening effortlessly or there is something more to be known, which is attempting to reveal itself to me. my experience of life as an adventure with exciting unknowns arising daily, lends itself to this kind of interpretation.

one example: when i was in palenque, mexico and wanting to head south to costa rica, with only $5 to my name, suddenly lots of people wanted acupuncture(at $20 a tx!), and a week later i had $200 and was hitch hiking south with my friend. getting all kinds of amazing rides from strangers who took us into their homes, prepared and bought us meals, went out of their way to take us where we needed to go. this tells me, yes, i am in the most natural flow. i had an intuitive desire and the world around me, including complete strangers, rose to fulfill it with me as i fulfilled something for it/ them.

i have a dream in which grandmother owl comes and speaks to me, and a few days later i walk down a hallway and see a photo of feathers like the ones on her shoulder. reminding me, there's more here. more to this connection. keep listening. keep looking...

i'm thinking it would be fun to eat pizza and my uncle's stepson and his wife just walked in and told me they're ordering pizza! yum.

synchronicities do occur. it's up to us whether we ascribe meaning to them or not. to me it's all about being open to the divine flow of life living me. sometimes silly, sometimes profound. doing my best to allow it's wisdom and inspiration to arise in me in right timing and carry me where i need to go. because all is one, the deepest truth will always be reflected in the events and surroundings of each moment, in my own thoughts and feelings, and in the life expression of these other beings (you!) sharing the mystery with me. it's up to me to recognize and respond to it.

explaining connectivity:

connectivity is the oneness that we all are. the dream that dreams each of us and all that is.

connectivity is the concept that we are all made of the same "thing" (that-which-is) and indeed are the same. it's why thoughts and occurrences are not limited by the speed of light, and often arise simultaneously, because there is really no distance between beings/things which are fundamentally one. "an unbroken wholeness."

week two

reflections on uncertainty:

what a wonderful thing. in one small area of science it is accepted that "we" don't know, can't know for sure. we can make reasonable guesses, but we have no way to accurately prove them. here is western science finally being honest. what a relief. and now we can get on with more forays into honesty and what western science has done and is doing to this world by not knowing, or not admitting to not knowing. the uncertainty principle as applied to biology, chemistry, astronomy, archeology! which reminds me, when i taught environmental ed with middle school kids, in archeology, we used to give them modern objects and ask them to take the role of future archeologists in describing the uses. the result was a lot of creative stories and the point was easily made that everything else we were about to teach them was similar: powerful stories created from our current knowledge base, with lots of room for significant error. i loved that. let's start from there, from here, from our own unique perspectives, moving into infinite possibility.

comments on causality:

once in the middle of a long meditation retreat i got a little insight into lifetimes/ ancestral karma as being a simple rebalancing. not a punishment for sins, or reward for good deeds, but a rebalancing of the sort we would attempt to move toward and through in chinese medicine.

and how beautiful that science is discovering areas where effect can't be directly linked in forward moving time or space to cause. so much freedom in that.

i'm becoming increasingly aware of the interconnectedness of all that is. how real and tangible, daily and momentary this interconnection is. seeking to be in what comes as the most natural flow, even within a world disconnected from nature. feeling this flow as a place where cause and effect are intertwined and the feather which greets me at the top of a dry waterfall, did i find it? did it call me there? how are my life and the hawk's life and the life of the riverbed and the surrounding plants and animals altered by or orchestrating this moment? the question itself opens so much possibility and i feel blessed and grateful and joyful to be alive in these moments. in this moment now.

is the universe weird?

extremely, wonderfully, magically. making life worth living.

synchronicity?:

i do pay attention to synchronicites and take them as divine wisdom/oneness attempting to communicate with me. just opening my awareness to possible connections  and understandings and seeing if they come. feeling that sometimes my mind is too busy to listen to my own heart so my heart has to communicate through external voices, be they words and phrases, people i run into repeatedly or dreams, photos, smells, sounds, that occur at very particular moments or which recur repeatedly. feeling the holistic nature of all that is and of course the external would reflect the internal and v/v.  

week one

what attracts me to chinese medicine?

the ability to interact with all the elements of this earth in a very real and tangible way. to share that interaction with others. to oftentimes find connection, joy, insight and healing in the process. ex: treating a friend for depression outside underneath a sycamore tree and the deep blue sky. feeling the spirit of great grandfather sycamore reaching down and into my friend, promoting growth, movement, nurturance and flexibility in her wood element. helping her heal herself holistically and healing the rest of us in the process.

what do i think of physics, really?

physics in this context seems like a great opportunity to enjoy pondering the boundaries and possibilities of existence.  

have i ever experienced time slowing down or speeding up?

playing in the canyon with the owls, feeling outside of time in that no matter when i enter, there is always plenty of time to connect with them and the other beings who live there before returning to regular, agreed-upon time space outside the canyon. a very distinct feeling of being in a space separate from regular time.

also with a sweet baby the other day, feeling time really slowing down. returning to the time awareness of a child/ infant. enjoying this extra gift of time length in my life.

reflections on this week's class - the meaning of time:

really feeling time is a flexible construct. fun to play with, push the edges of, challenge. can also be limiting. frustrating in the way our society is so tightly ordered around it. i've always enjoyed those daylight savings time switch days, where we all agree to set the clocks forward or backward (ok, not all of us) because to me it just highlights the fact that time is just something we all agree upon. not something real, that actually means something, just something arbitrary we choose to rule (guide. live!) our lives by.

feeling that there is another time that for me is so much more real. canyon time. sun time. moon time. leaves beginning to fall from the trees time. fawns losing their spots time. orion in the morning sky, moving toward night time. banana slugs returning soon time! emotions turning inward again time. spirit world opening up time. not to mention holistic time and the presence of all that ever was or will be here in this moment now. ancestors, past and future, living this present moment in our expression of lifeforce.  and that's just talking about here on earth. how about galactic time. universal time. beyond universal time? 

really enjoying what we don't know and how what "we" do know, officially, scientifically, changes so radically and often, that we can only play with what we think we know and look within ourselves for the light of true wisdom which springs from our own hearts. maybe this is where the white holes are found.

impressions on quantum mechanics readings:

duh. wow, i guess i haven't had to read any scientific stuff for a looong time and feel like i'm slogging through mush and not really getting a whole lot out of it. mush that would apparently be extremely interesting to some people, and does have a few lines which excite me, like: "the trajectory of any atomic scale object is "squishy" in the sense that any measurement intended to get clearer on the objects position forces knowledge of it's velocity to become less clear, and vice-versa." cool. and the general idea that experiments designed to show light's wave characteristics did just that, while those designed to show it's particle characteristics all succeeded. maybe surprising scientifically, but not surprising in the real world, that they would find what they're looking for. 

ok, just looked at krysstal website and that's a relief. extremely simple, just the way i like it. simple enough to be truly interesting and exciting. "it is possible for something to be created out of nothing, given enough time!" "wave particle duality." "electrons exist in energy states. when they absorb energy, they absorb a whole number of quanta, disappear, appearing at a different energy state." all very intriguing.

looking forward to being helped through this material so i can really absorb and enjoy it.